I’m Angry at Me

31 Dec

I had such high hopes when I found out about the news. I was ready to put everything aside and set it as my number1 priority. I was ready to sacrifice anything for it, including my results.

But what I see now is me, watching from the side while everyone’s working their asses off.

Me, wanting to help but not knowing how.
Me, feeling all useless, good-for-nothing.
Me, being called the-one-who-does-nothing.
Me, understanding not much of what people want from me.
Me, not knowing what am I for.
Me, hoping I can turn to the usual someone to tell all this to.
Me, finally realising I don’t have anyone reliable enough with me now.

5 Responses to “I’m Angry at Me”

  1. Dwee December 31, 2008 at 8:12 pm #

    What’s wrong wor?

  2. Sechlanik January 1, 2009 at 2:17 am #

    Why so emo? You sounded like you have something troubling you…

  3. hL January 1, 2009 at 5:49 pm #

    happy new year =)

    and dont be angry at urself maybe your job is to make sure the rest do their jobs. and just helping out. and if that usual someone is who i think it is then i hope it’ll turn out well for u.

  4. jessieloi January 1, 2009 at 7:05 pm #

    hey darling.

    the usual someone should be knocked on the head. haha. be patience dear. like hl, i hope it’ll turn out well for you to.

    and hey, you know me, drey and maybe heng is reliable. ahahah

  5. Xin Min January 2, 2009 at 12:50 am #

    Dwee: something earlier was troubling me.. nothing big though. thanks anyway.. =)

    Sechlanik: yeah.. at that moment it was very troubling. now not so edi.. hehe.

    hL & Jess: i dunno.. its like its not what i expected at all. so i dunno if i'm even doing the right thing. and don't get me wrong. i'm not saying u guys are not reliable. its just that u guys are not here with me at that time physically. hehe.

    and yup. things are getting slightly, just slightly better.

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