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The ‘I-dunno-what-title-to put’ Post

9 May

I am back from the camp.

It wasn’t as bad as I had expected I would say.
Thought we’ll be going outdoors and the camp would involve some really physical trainings but it was done in the college itself, so nope, no tigers.

Nevertheless, a lot of critical thinking was involved and they were constantly playing mind games with us. Lack of sleep and tasks to be done with only one night given was a little stressful but my fellow groupmates were all still laughing, sharing jokes, so yeah, we had fun in between as well. =)

I got selected but the perkampungan only starts next Friday, so I’m home now. Will make full use of my break;gonna sleep, sleep and sleep then squeeze yumcha sessions in between.

Actually, I wrote this to say this out. I’m hesitating as this is quite personal and I don’t feel like disclosing any names yet. Everything is still uncertain so no point pouring all the details here. Many would say then, no point posting it up. I’m like hinting but not tellling. Like it or not, this is my blog and I have the rights to write anything here. I won’t just write something for the sake of inviting more readers to this dead blog of mine.

It is about a guy. Yes, I’ve been mentioning him just a little in my posts before this.

Anyway, I only told some of my really close friends this person’s identity not because those whom I didn’t tell are not my preferred friends, it is just that like I mentioned, no point telling something uncertain. I myself am not sure if I really like this guy. I don’t think I know him enough as we rarely talk. Anyhow, those few times we spoke make me feel really comfortable and nice. And I’m always looking forward to talk to him again.

Thing is, this kind of good feeling will usually just go off after some time but this time, though I was sort of stressed out and occupied when I was in the camp, I constantly think of him. Getting short messages or just news about him from another friend makes me smile. Yes, this is very mushy, I know.

Problem is, friends who know about this don’t think it is a good idea. Me and my good feeling I mean. They have their logic and reasons for this. I’m just not the type of girl that a guy would fall for once they know me. I’ve never been labelled as attractive or anything close to that. I’m not being humble or harsh on myself, these are facts. I don’t smile to strangers or friends I don’t really know and talking to them would take some time. I won’t even bother greeting people I don’t like while some would take the courtesy to be nice and smile, at least. I’m just…mean. Yes, mean is the right word.

And this guy is, from what most of us know, someone who takes looks pretty seriously. Shallow, I know but who doesn’t judge one from their looks? It’s just that some that are not so attractive turns out to be really nice people, so they become pretty to you after some time. I know this is getting confusing but wth, I hope you guys get it lah.

This is why I wrote this post. I feel…wrong. Like I insist on jumping into the water, just because I like doing that though my dear ones keep telling me how dangerous it is and I would hurt myself when I fall. I don’t know what to do.

To take the safe route and never know what might just happen.

Or to go against the norm and take chances.

I don’t know.

I want to…

3 May

I want to know how was LeeHom’s concert.

I want to go shopping.

I want to go to the cinema.

I want to go clubbing.

I want to know how is he doing. *ahem* XD

I want to know how are Timon and Pumbaa in Penang. You guys having fun?

I want to know where are we going for the PM camp.

I want to know why I can’t sleep any earlier than 4 in the morning.

I want to know why all guys like to sweet talk and give wrong signals to girls. Idiots.

I want to know if there’s anyone out there with answers to any of my questions.

Back!!

27 Apr
I’m back!!!

No, I don’t mean that I haven’t been updating enough or something but the ‘me’ I thought I lost earlier is back!!

I know what I want and how am I going to get it.

A big thank you to friends who supported me when I was down.

And not forgetting Xinyi, Fei, Mom and the rest at home who are always there to cheer me up through short visits with apples and Twisties, phone calls or even SMSes. I’m glad I didn’t go too far away from home.

Will update on the random trips I went during the exam week soon.

Oh yah, someone else is back too!! Guess who?

I’ll give you guys some clues…

She’s short and loves to call herself adorable but we prefer to label her as a dumb black.

=)

Yes.. This full of nonsense girl is back.. XD

Reason?

22 Apr

I just came up from the Bilik TV in my hostel, after talking to Wei Kuan, Pak Koon, Louise and Elensha.

We planned to study but the list of people who gets to stay in college just came out and what do you know, we all started talking about it.

Anyway, I managed to get over the anger I felt earlier for seeing names which I haven’t even heard before on the list but a few active ones don’t get to stay, so I am not going to talk about it anymore here.

Reason for this post is…

I feel a little lost lately.

Like I don’t know what is the point to study at such last minutes but I need to, cause I haven’t even been listening in classes.

Or why the hell am I so dumb that I need 3 hours to finish up one, just one small part of Public Administration.

And… I don’t know…

Something is really disturbing me but I can’t exactly say what it is, cause I don’t even know what.

At times, though I’m walking with a big group of close friends, I still feel terribly lonely.

It is not their fault at all, they are really nice people, nothing’s wrong with them, it’s ME.

Rindu…

11 Apr
#1. My short ah sou, Loi and I

#2. Us

#3. Us again.. =)

#4. With HENG!

I miss the BFFs badly.

I think it’s because I’m back at Subang.

=(

I can imagine Audrey screaming “Why you go post pics of me looking like that???” already. =)